all we have to do is Pray

"So I tuck it all away, like everythings okay
If I make them all believe it, maybe I’ll believe it too
So with a painted grin, I play the heart again
So everyone will see me the way that I see them " -Casting Crowns - Stained Glass Masquirade

this is so me..that exactly what i do..i tuck it all away like everything is okay..like nothing is wrong..its like if i can fool them then maybe one day it will just become true..like the saying..a lie can turn into the truth

now a lie literally cant be turned into the truth but sometimes if i lie is kept fo so long then it is like it is true..sometimes you begin to believe that its true.. anyways back to the song verse..i will act like everything is okay..i act like nothing can bother me even if something is..i am very good at hiding things..but sometimes things just aint going to well, one thing could happen..it could be anything but it could be the one thing that makes me break down..then i get all..i start questioning things and cant contain myself.

But you see I am blessed to have a friend that i can talk to about anything..if i ever did anything and needed to tell someone she would be the one i would tell..she will talk to me if i wanna talk or just chill if i wanna chill..she will yell back or just let me vent..you know its nice because she doesnt take it personally..she knows that i am just having a bad time at the moment and that i will be alright i just need some help..i dont really like asking for help because it makes me feel weak..and to me being weak is not good..even with being a Christian..i need to be strong..i need to have faith but you know what sometimes it is hard to be strong and i have a hard time with things..have a hard time making decisions or doing what God wants me to do..but every second that happens in my life is ment to happen..God has a plan for me the messed up thing is we have a choice not to listen..not to obey..the devil likes to mess with us because we are Gods children and he loves us..the only way to get to Him is through the ones He loves..we have the choice to deny the chance..I have to honor of helping protect my Father..my Creator the bottom line is i have the choice to do what i want and thats what makes it so hard..i could take the easy way out and just do whatever and not care what happend or who it effects..it hurts other people too yea, but the only person i am truly hurting is myself..i am the only who make the chances of me making it to the Holy City possibly..now that is a lot of pressure and that why we have Jesus and God..to help us on the way..he just wants us to know that for the things we Need to happen, he is there for us..to give us strength and patience, understanding and love, he gives us wisdom and serenity..all we have to do is Pray. Sometimes when i loose sight of things my friend helps me realise whats what..she is a wicked person who i dedefiantly know has a ticket into the Holy City..im working for mine..each individual is a mirror of the whole..we as Christian owe it to Him to do the right thing and show those who are lost the way..when you get to the top lift someone up..lift up a brother or sister of Christ..we need to help save them like we were helped..improve everything you touch.

God bless