stand alone..but dont be afraid to stand up

First of all Camp Arnes was so amazing..great things happened..like for example..i led a girl in prayer to accept Jesus into he heart. It was so awesome, this girl..lets just say she kinda reminds me of me in some ways..like how she grew up and her current situation.

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You know I really don't think people get me. I mean they know the old me and everything but its just they think i am still the same person i have always been. Man they are so wrong. I am almost a completely different person. Maybe not in looks. But i am kinder, more loving, more mature, more aware than ever before. What makes the major difference is the way i think. I dont think like most 19 year old girls who 1 year dry day is coming around. I am a 19 year old too soon to be 20 Christian girl who loves God more than anything. I have such a passion to be like Jesus. That all i want is to be like him. Now days Religion is not okay to be..outspoken or verbalized without violating some guys feelings because he he has issues he cant deal with so he takes it out on God hmm does that even make sense..lol its all really funny to me you know. Someone said that a certain place was corrupt. Man i think the world needs to look the fuck around once in a while and actually take in whats going on. I am not saying that people have to go out of their way to try and do something because that would be crossing the line apparently. But if anything we need to be aware. things are NOT perfect. People are not perfect. I am not perfect. You want perfect, talk to Jesus about it because He is the only man to ever walk the earth not a sinner. And yet people still turn away from it and act like its not a big deal. Just wait when judgment day comes and you cant come into the Holy city prepared for us by the King himself don't say no one warned you. Because if you wanted you could do something about it. I just cant understand why some people don't get it.
I mean i get it and i see things happening and i am just like everyone else. Difference is i try and i care. I want to be like Christ so i am doing my best to.

Sometimes people make fun of me. Sometimes people argue with me and make me feel really insecure about myself. Some people mock me and annoy me. Sometimes people make me laugh and satisfy me with a good conversation. Sometimes people make me cry or yell and even punch things. Sometimes people hurt me or try to be better than me. Sometimes people ignore me, and are rude to me. Sometimes people boss me around. Sometimes people expect to much of me. Sometimes people are not grateful for what i do for them. Some people are inspired by me. Some people love, some like, some even hate me. Most people don't understand me or my intentions. Sometimes i do some of the same things. But i am always kind a polite when it is needed. I try to help people around me and not expect anything in return. I love my friends and my family, i love my youth. I love myself . But most of all i love my savior Jesus Christ and my Father God. I live my life the best way i know how to. I get direction from God and from my mentors. n to advice people give me and sometimes try to apply it. I am always there for my friends no matter what. I will go out of my way anytime just because that the way i am. Some people take advantage of it. Some people don't. I am just getting sick and tired of trying to understand why people cant see the thing that happen because God wanted them to. He knows what he is doing and He knows his will. He knows whats going to happen from it too. See when you go through a tough time in your life it to teach you a lesson. Most people think they just have bad luck and they are being shit on by the world. When really there is a lesson in the making you are just to stubborn and self centered to think that maybe someone is not try to get you but trying to help you. You meaning people in generally, someone being Gods army. I seriously don't know if what i am say here makes sense but it does in my head so I'm writing it. All i know is that i am here to serve my Lord. So thats what I am doing.

I don't want anyone to take anything here taken personal because it was not meant to be. I just needed to vent, not to anybody because they probably wouldn't understand, but maybe this way you can get the full view.


just trying to be a good and faithful servent

mollie-ann