work harder!

what is the deal with people thses days..you never really know who you know..if you know what i mean..poeple always put on their roll to impress people..it get s so sikning sometimes..why cant poeple jsut be who they are..why do people have to be ashamed or afraid to show their true colors..i mean there is a time and a place for everything like if you are going to bring out the child in you in the middle of a confrence then maybe that might not be such a good idea..but you know what bothers me the most is when people dont act themselves becasue of what other poeple might think..dont get em wrong i do the same thing at times..but why do people do it, do they do it to try to impress other people or do they do it to try and hide from people..there are people out there whosay things but they never come through..or people who say things but it will only be to certain people..why do you think that is..personaly i think that people act the way they do becasue they are scared of what people might think..but why do we care..okay yea they see the outsisde, but they dont see what they should see..the real us..why would we care if they dont like us on the outside..our appearence really has nothing to do with it in my opinion..if onyl people could what is in our heart by looking..well it is posible..i think that our eyes tell the story..you cant tell a lot by looking in someones eyes..you can tell weather someone is lost or hurt..im not sure where i am goi ng with this right now..i am just getting stuff off my mind..i just cant stand when people are asked to keep secreats or when people talk shiet about other people and then get mad at you if you tell them whta you said..like wtf..why do epople gotta talk shiet anyway? what does it prove..not even taling shiet about tother people but just talkin crap about anything..like saying you know this and you know that but you cant back it up..or how about when people say im there..but they aint..i cant stand it..the world we live in is so flippin messed up it makes me sick sometimes..and why does it seem like EVERYONE is doing drugs..i will be honest with you i use to be a druggie..i partied from friday night till tuesday morning sometimes..i was a punk ass drug addict who thought she could make it..fuck that man i got my but outta that situation..i got myself cleaned up and started to base my appearence and the way i act to the things i feel on the inside..everytime i hear that another one of my friend turned to cocaine it makes me sick to my stomach..the messed up thing is when i talk to them about it they get mad at me as if i dont know where they going..i was there..i did it all there aint nothing you can tell me about coke that i dont know i loved it..i lived off of it..why are these people willing to slowly committ suicide??? i look at myself now and i see a world of difference..i am a christian now..i live by my morals once again..say please and thank you..give help when it is needed..i live for my savior..i do my besyt to do what is right..i dont always succeed but atleast i try..imaging how life would be if everyone just tried a little..what hurts me the most is watching people i love drift farther and farther away from God..it is my duty to try and lead them to our Lord..but its hard..so i just have to work harder