good morning..yea right

i am 19 years old and treated like an outcasted child someitimes..i hate it..i cant do anything without it being wrong..i opened the new jar of peanut butter before the old one was finished..i am really picky with something and i dont like no name peanut butter..so i opened the new smooth one..why do old people get so grouchy..why do they have to take it out on other people for? Thses past couple months have been emotionally confusing for me..there are a lot of things that i have to think about but i dont want to so i usually just try not to think about them and hope that nothing bad comes from it..when i get b****ed at i usually just sit there and listen becasue i feel like i am minority to the person yelling..even if i have something to say i wont say anything..part of this is becasue i have an anger problem and sometimes i dont know whow to controll my words..i love to yell and argue..but not so much anymore..i want to be a good christian but there are just so many things trying to convince me otherwise..the biggest war on earth is the war between good and evil..i am trying in my own life to win the battle..joining His army i sjust as tuff..sometimes i just wish i werent me..but then again if i werent me i would know the people i know or know how to do the things i can..i would have the friends i do or the life im starting..but i guess ill just deal with it..hope everything works out right.