change will never cease..thank God!

my life is changing..yet again..i am beginning to really open up and learn who i really am..i am beginning to understand myself and i think that this is so important in my relationship with God..this week has been a pretty good week..a healthy one..on terrins last night with us here in winnipeg before she went back to Verden i said to Shawna.."shawna i look out there and i am nothing like anyone out there..i dont belong with them"..this past Sunday was vision night..after it was done i went on stage and i said to her.."you know shawna i am exactly like everyone one of them out there"..she said that she could have told me that but only i could figure that out for myself..and you know what that is so true..no one can for knowledge on anyone..they have to experience it for themselves.....when i first became a Christian i was so excited about God that i just wanted everyone to know..i went about it the wrong way too.. like completly..for example..one of my friends who mean very much to me is not a follower of God..but i wanted him to..it was like i tried pushing God on him and that was not fair to God or to my friend..by doing this i lost a friend..i now know that i am never going to be able to force anyone to be a Christian nor do i want to..i just want to lead by example..people know me and how i use to be..they are not stupid..when i said that i was just like everone else at my church i ment it like this: these people..all they are trying to do is live their lives the best they know how to under our Father..i saw past the labels and realised that they are all just real people..just like me..trying to be good and faithful servents..some more so than others..but nevertheless i am just like them..i am really beginning to see the changes in myself..the way i think..the way i act..i have lernt that my biggest down fall is my pride..i need to work on that..and many other things but as a Christian i know that with Jesus by my side everything is going to be okay..i learn new things everyday..and everyday i look forward to the next..

i want to keep writing more but someonthing telling me to stop here..maybe its God maybe its becasue its late and i have to work tomorrow..but i think i will listen to it..good night!

always mo